Its gonna be 10 months since I quit my job, back there in India...bade goodbye to all my friends I ever made in Bangalore, and prepared myself for the most important day of my life. My life changed overnight after that. Nov 1st, 2007, was the day I first saw Viju...the time between June 2007, till November 1st 2007 were like treacherous. It felt like someone had put 20 Lb weights onto my legs and asked me to run!! Try as I might, the finishing line would look so far far away...well, so it was, at the Bangalore Airport International Arrivals Terminal...where I waited...for four long hours...to catch a glimpse of the person I'm going to marry...and Boy!! Wasn't that tough!!
Seven days, was all we had for each other.... Nov 1st, to Nov 7th...those were our days of "Official Flirting", and we made the most of it. But trust me, we could hardly know each other in such a short span of time...although we had been talking to each other on phone for about 4 months, the face-to-face thing was different...And then came the D-day....11th Nov, when we entered Holy Wed-lock. Life since then, has been a roller coaster ride...with its ups n downs...but its been wonderful...and worthwhile...worth the wait... :) Touchwood!!
But this post is not about now, its about then, then and those days...even before I got married...
Yes, as the song goes, true to its word, "Those were the BEST days of my life!!!"
The three years I spent in Bangalore, those were the finest years I could have ever dreamed of. I was working, I was independent, I was responsible, I had my space, I had the world at my feet...and I totally loved it!! I made new frens, and got in close touch with frens in Mumbai...like Vadi, Neha, Prachi, Santo...with Vadi n Santo, it was different...Vadi came to Bangalore to meet me...and we had a great time...those were really wonderful moments...and great memories...so was it with Santo...when he came to Bangalore...with Neha n Prach, it used to be like a re-union everytime I wud visit Mumbai...and my visits were very frequent...and we really used to have fun roaming around in AnushaktiNagar...
Then there were Parag, Sachin, VJ, Koch and Sudha in Bangalore....it was a Picture Perfect life...and then I met Viju over the internet...which was like icing on the cake...
With Viju entering my life, I also met Surya...he was a blessing in disguise...with Parag and Sachin off to USA, VJ, Koch and Sudha very busy at work...and me having all the time in this world (I was quitting soon...so obviously I had no work to do), Surya was definitely my savior...Parag used to say that when old frens leave, God always sends a replacement...guess he was right...Me n Surya spent some really great times...in the four months that I was with him, I got to know him so very well...he is more like my baby...and I really miss him a lot here...well, to be really frank, and with due respects to all the people in my life...I must confess that I miss Surya the most...coz he's one person with whom I wud never realize how time flew...with him, I felt like "This is Life yaaaaaaar!!!" sorts... :-)
But looking back, in retrospect, I miss that life...as a spinster...well, I must say that I have no regrets getting married to Vijay...but still...I miss being independent...financially...I miss working...I miss my country...I miss my people...I miss my frens...I feel like I have left myself back there in India...coz this is not the Savita I knew...this is not the "me" I was so comfortable with...I see a more silent and cold Savita now... :-( I wish I could work here...unfortunately I wasnt really lucky to get an H1...maybe next time...but you know what, the next time looks far far faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar away...and for a person like me, who's always been on her toes...not being employed is one of the toughest things I've ever faced...my mind remains so idle...more so, like a devil's workshop... :( I have out grown movies, books, internet, all my hobbies...everything now...and blogging is the only way for me to emote...I so badly want to have the same kinda life I then had...I wanna work...I hope my wish comes true next year...amen...
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2 comments:
For a change, I am at a loss of words as to what to say. But I do understand how frustrating it is for a person so full of life as you to be leading the kinda lifestyle you are leading right now. But that's life. That day might not be very far when you will think back to these days and laugh at yourself :-)
One thing I am sure of is that you are in safe hands; and that I trust your ability of handling yourself in any situation life brings your way.
saviben
well, what i might say might sound
a bit ideal. I know you have been independent and energetic all life long and still are. But earning and spending money arent the only places you could get happiness. You build friendships, relationships , then life is full of happiness. Learn something new every month, if its too expensive, try joining evening classes in the community centre. Go hiking with friends on the weekends.
When your health is good, the people around you are good ,there is no reason to feel bad about anything. get your mind into the present, live life to the fullest and enjoy every instance such that its your last instance in life.
Happiness and satisfaction is within you, you will never find it in people and places. you will always find it within you.
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