Twinkle Twinkle Little Star!!

Su. Thats what I call her...well, I know the whole world calls her that, but I'm different...why?? Coz, after every Su, comes "kar, mere man ko, kiya tune, kya isaada", and I know she loves that... :-) Ok, jokes apart, I am talking about Sudha, one of my closest friends, who's different, trust me, really different from others. She's one lady who always, yes, always, no matter what, maintains that beautiful smile on her face...and a twinkle in her eyes...and thats what makes her different from others... :)

I met her at work once, well, not really met her, just....had her glimpse, on the 24th of April 2006, when we had all gone for a company lunch at the Leela Palace. She was a new joinee...and I must mention that she joined us as the HR of our Bangalore Center. Now, I must accept one thing. I have this thing for HRs...I mean...I generally try to stay away from them...coz they have this amazing capability of seeing through your self...man!!! That's really scary...I wouldn't want any stranger...any XYZ to actually know everything about me, without even talking to me!! So that's how I decided to keep things with her...distance...was the one word I wanted to have with her...EVER.

She used to sit in the first floor of our office, and I was right above her, on the second floor. On one particular afternoon, I had been to the first floor for some work, and was about to leave...when, much to my amazement, I heard a squeakly little voice call out to me and say, "Hellooooo".

"Hi", I said (A very sheepish smile).

"I thought you would surely take the initiative and talk to me" (Contrary to mine, this smile was a very jubiliant and cheerful one).

I shrugged. I didn't really have anything to say. This was really the first time someone was approaching me for a conversation. Not that other people didn't, but something like this, coming from an HR, it shouldnt have been surprising.

"Well, I didn't really get time".

"Oh, thats ok, now you do". Pat came the answer!!! So I instantly kinda realised that this lady's not gonna be all that easy to deal with....Hmmm....now I had another word in my mind other than distance...CAUTION. Yes, CAUTION it was...I dint want her to know me so transparently...

Well, that was a year ago...and today, when I look back at those times, I realise what a fool I had been, and also thank myself, that I did let go of "distance" and "caution" for Su. We are great friends today, and if there is really somebody who'se gonna miss me when I leave India, I'm sure its gonna be her...I never realized how we beacme such great friends...we gel so well!!! touchwood!!! We've had our good and bad times together...yes, in the one year I got to know her, we have fought quite many times...and you know how girls fight...its only a bow-n-arrow game of words...but yet, we've just left it behind, and gone back to our same old time pass of gossipping :). Yes, there have been people who have tried to manipulate our relationship...but between Su n me, things are really very clear...crystal clear. NO ONE can try to come between us...period. Well, of course sometimes I have felt bad that she had hidden some things from me, and that I got to know about it from a third person, but that really doesnt change the way I feel for her...she's is and will always remain one of my closest friends...someone with whom I can easily confide...

Tell you what, my opinion about HRs, finally seems to have changed...thanks to Su. She is really not the typical "HR" kind. She's different...yes, very very different from all the friends I have...she's unique in her own way. I keep telling her to bring that attitude thing of hers down...and all that she has to say is, "I know I have an attitude da...I have it big time...but then, who cares!!!! :D" Well, I really appreciate that in her...at least she accepts she has an attitude...doing something about it might not really be a concern for her. Thats how she is...simple, and straightforward...wouldn't ever take nonsense...just like me...no wonder we always have lots to gossip...

She is a wonderful human being...she's this short and bubbly girl, with a very big heart. I pray to God to fulfill all that she ever dreams of. I always keep telling people that friends come in your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime...this girl surely crept into my life slowly...for a very specific reason...she was my pillar of strength...she was my support during all those times when I wanted someone by my side. She was the one who always gave a shoulder to cry on...Trust me Su...a few months from now, when I'll not be here...yet, where ever I would be, just remember that, someone, somewhere, is very very happy to have a great friend like you, and that someone, is really gonna miss you di!!! Love you loads Su....

Thanks a lot Su...for always always always ALWAYS being there for me...for understanding what others never understood...for listening, caring, loving...for everything...

And today, I wanna really tell you this...

"Choo kar, mere man ko, kiya tune, kya ishaara...
Badla ye mausam...lage pyaara jag saara......" Love you Lots Su... :) God Bless!!!

The Day We Part Ways...

Scary. Very very scary...I dunno how i'm gonna deal with it...so less time?? why?? Couldnt I be with them for a few more months to go?? maybe till his birthday?? I know all of it has one answer. NO.
Parag always tells me...there is no point in living in the past, or rather, thinking about what happened or did not happen in the past and sulking over it; thinking about what good could have happened, but dint happen and crave for it...although I do agree to all that he says, I dont really see myself accepting many things yet. "Pata hi nahi chala ki waqt kaise haath se nikal gaya...pata hi nahi chala ki rishte kitni jaldi badal gaye" is all I can say...

He's going, soon, very soon, to a far far away land, on the other side of this earth...and I dont know, in the times to come, when he returns, if i would ever be able to be there at the airport to receive him...if i would ever be in a position to hug him tightly and welcome him back, coz by then, things would have changed, and my priorities too...I would have moved on with my life too, but yet...I have so much to tell him, but I dont know if I would ever be able to do it. But I want to talk with him, spend time with him, be with him for some more time...there is so much more that I want to express...there is so much that I wanna do for him...not simply bcoz I keep saying that he is my best friend, but bcoz he's more than that...my mentor, my guide, my well wisher, yes, he is my bestest friend!! And to him, I hope I will always be remembered, as his (possible) Best Friend...

Its just about two years that we became such great friends...considering how I hated him way back in November 2004, to now...times have changed. Personally, I dont really make friends that fast, and when I do, I make friends for life, and the bond with that person grows over the years. But with Parag, its just two years, and it feels I have known him since ages!!! Yet it feels insufficient...


When sac was here, we used to have a lot of fun...we've had some really crazy times...night shows, tiff with the traffic police, silent walks, what not!! We used to be called the three musketeers...with sac leaving to US soon after his marriage, I began to feel lonely, as at that time, there wasnt much chemistry between me n parag that I could share stuff wid him...as again...times have changed :) and here I am...actually dedicating an entire post to someone who still fights with me for all kinds of silly reasons...
As time passed, we became great friends...Tom-&-Jerry - That's what we are called...by almost everyone, even by his wife!!! All of my other friends have never addressed me by my full name. Some call me Savi, or Savvy or SaviBen...anything, but not Savita. He was the only guy who used to sincerely call me "SAVITA"; and I hated it...I had to wait two long years before I finally heard the four lettered short form "Savi" from his mouth, when we playing a game of cards...he had said... "Khel...Savi, tera turn hai" I cant describe how happy I was that day!!! Not that it really matters…coz it’s the feeling behind it that makes all the diference…and I know for sure, that we are will always be the best of friends!! Trust me, he is one guy who has really always been there for me...and the bond that we share is what I call pure and divine friendship...nothing MORE, nothing LESS...and I'm proud of this bond...proud that we have always kept it that way...and never took any other meaning for it, nor let anybody else assume anything insensible...

I know these are very small things, but they hold so much of importance in my life...small things that keep reoccuring in one's life go unnoticed, but those which happen once in a blue moon remain in the mind for a lifetime...and so it is, that I will never forget those little little things that he's done for me, although unknowingly, coz they matter to me...a lot. This photo is an example.


This pic is a one time memory...and its my favorite…trust me, this pic is the first thing I see everyday once I reach office…coz its right there on my desk...smiling back at me...the smile on my face is not made up...its so so so natural, only I know how happy I was that day...there are many more such memories...I can never forget the “Snatch the Bottle” game we played on the terrace long time back…it was fun!!! :-) Boy!! I miss those days…There are many such little gestures that are etched in my mind... There are so many memories that are for forever, happy and sad too... and to say it the "Harry Potter" way, they are stored in my "Pensieve" forever...locked away in time...

But, time seems to be flying now...our relationship has changed a lot. I must not forget to mention that our bond has become much much stronger...but at the same time, we dont really get much time for each other...not as much as earlier...I miss those days, and to tell the truth, I want more of it...how I wish I could go back in time and change everything to my convienience...hehe...wishful thinking... :) And yet again, times are gonna change...yes, I know we'll meet again...but this time, I dunno how it's going to be...

I thank God, that he did spare me that ONE day, when I spoke with him a lot...shared with him everything I ever wanted to...made him an integral part of my happiness...I know he's very happy...coz I'm very happy today...finally...and I thank God that this day did dawn in my life...before the day we part ways...

Dreams? What are they? This is divine Reality!!! :-)

It was a very weird feeling…I know I was very very happy…but somewhere, in the corner of my heart, I missed him terribly…I wanted him to be here…in India, take my hands and slide the ring into my finger…but that was far from reality…

Hey!!! Ppl…don’t think that this one’s a sad story…no way!!! In fact, this one’s the best story of my life!!! That day, the day I wore the ring, was the happiest day of my life…coz I was getting engaged to my soulmate!!! Just that he couldn’t make it to India for the engagement…but what the heck!!! Our hearts have met, and that’s all that matters…rest everything is a formality…

This all happened within a month’s time…last month, sometime in the beginning of June, I was just living life the way it had to be…morose, mundane and nothing new to talk about…just, abnormally normal…you know…waking up early in the morning, going to office, crib about my best friend leaving to the US soon, and how I would be missing him, work, if possible, come home, eat like a glutton, and go off to sleep…this was all that I did…no goals in life, no ambitions, absolutely no enthusiasm…it was a totally unceremonious life…but, with the wink of an eyelid, everything changed!!!! And here I am, totally in love…eager to be in his arms…he’s far far away from me, and yes, the distance is painful…but you know what, I’m in love with the pain too…

About a month or more back, this person who introduced himself as Vijay to me in his mail, slowly crept into my life…to be very frank, I really dint wanna reply to his mail, but then under the pressure of my parents, I gave in, expecting that this one’s gonna be another failure…and that I would get a very polite but “to-the-point” mail, rejecting me as usual…I was fed up of the whole process of match-making, and was least interested in even showing minimal interest in it. Surprisingly, he mailed me back, and the reply was a pretty pleasant one at that (of course it yet dint mention his decision). And so it started, the series of mails, and chats…I slowly began to realize that we think alike…in fact, we also had more or less the same taste!!! It felt weird initially, but later on, it began to feel great!!!

We exchanged quite a few mails, and then he called, one beautiful Saturday evening…we spoke for about an hour…and we never realized how time flew!! That was the day I felt that he is THE one…though I couldn’t have really said it to him then and there…I didn’t know what he thought, and was praying that this just works out…as I told earlier…God really seems to be answering my prayers…he has been too generous of late…and I guess now he really wants to see me happy…after all that I have gone through…He feels I have had enough of mental trauma, and so, today, here I am, happy, very happy, coz I am engaged to my soul mate… :-)

Today, life shows a totally different face to me…it says that now its time to celebrate, but at the same time, it keeps me aware of my past, bcoz of which I am what I am today. Yes, I am happy…I’m flying!!! I have finally met the man of my dreams…and he is the most precious thing to me…I wont ever let go of my treasure trove…never. I love him a lot, and today, I can proudly say it on the face of my past…”Happy days are here again!!!” And this time, they are for good. :-) He is a gem…very very understanding, very loving, and to top it all…he’s a die hard romantic…I am really really lucky to have him as my life partner…and I cant stop thanking God for this wonderful gift he has blessed me with…this person, who, entered into my life, has today become not just a part of my life, but and integral part of me...he's become my identity, my passion, and my biggest reason to live, and to finally enjoy life to the fullest...

We talk to each other almost everyday…and that’s the only consolation I have…coz I miss him a lot…how I wish I could be in his arms right now…I wish we could just go off to a beautiful island…just the two of us, and sit for hours together amidst greenery…well…I’m sure all of it will happen…surely one day…and I’m waiting to be with him…waiting to be his wife…waiting to take care of him like my baby…give him all the love he had ever craved for…always be there for him…in times good or bad, in sickness and in health…forever…well…its just a wait of about four more months for us to unite and become one…and after that, this girl, called Savita, who used to enjoy life only in her world of dreams…will see those dreams turn into reality…:-)

My Friend, My Bro, My Baby...

Its not even a month since I met him...the first time we met, I had just one thing in my mind about him - he is my fiance's brother...so I better behave well with him...I knew nothing about him, but yet, somewhere, I was eager to meet him. On the day we were to meet, it looked all so straightforward. I mean, a cuppa coffee at coffee day, talk for some time, and then go home. Thats it. But, well, it wasnt really just that much you know. My fiance had told me that his brother is one of the most mature human beings he has ever met, and that he can judge people very easily. He was about to give me his number, but then decided against it, and instead, the next day morning, I got a call from a very unknown number...now, I am a pathetic skeptic, so I was very very cautious when I took the call, praying its not any credit card or personal loan related. God seems to be actually answering my prayers these days :-), and the voice on the other side of the phone, thankfully, was that of a very mature guy, radiating confidence in the way he spoke. I like such people you know, coz I am of the same kind :D. Anyway, coming back to the point, this guy introduced himself as Surya (of course i knew his name!!! No wonder I was all smiles on the phone!!), we spoke for sometime, and over the day, we finally decided to meet...so there we were, sitting in cafe coffee day, and yapping our hearts out...we became friends instantly!!!

That was then...and it really looks like a long time back...coz now we're so close to each other, it feels as though I've known him since ages!!! He's become my friend, my brother, he's my baby!!! Tell you what, I had once read somewhere that virgos and librans just cant get along very well...but hey!! I really dont agree with this...of the few friends I have, most of them are librans, and so is my sweet devar surya!!! He's a gem of a kind, looks like a perfectionist, very very hardworking, and the sweetest brother I could have ever had...more than anything else, he's like my baby...very innocent, yet very cunning :-)

He is a guy of ambitions...and I know he wants to follow his dreams...I had told him one day... "I want to see you as the CEO of your company some day. I want to see your company growing, and employing people, making a lot of revenue. And I know you can do it" I really mean what I said, coz he has an astronomical amount of intelligence, a very very impressive hand of creativity, and a knack for convincing anybody into doing almost anything. All in all, he is my wonder boy!!! And I know he is gonna make it big not only in this industry some day, but also in people's lives. People just say, "I'm just a call away", but he means it...he IS actually just a call away for me; today, I didn't have my vehicle to go to office, and I really dint feel like walking those mere 15 mins. I just spoke to him yesterday about it, and the next thing I knew, he was near my house with his bike, to drop me to work!!! I almost cried, but didnt show it to him...coz he says he has promised his brother that he'll take care of me till his brother, my fiance, comes to India...and I really didnt wanna make him feel that he cant live up to his promise...of course he can!!! He is, as a matter of fact...he brings a smile on my lips instantly!!! He's a Sweetheart!!!

I'm really lucky to have been a part of this wonderful family, and I'm really blessed to have such wonderful people around...thanks to mom and dad for all their efforts...they really paid off...

Hey Putta, thank you so much, for never letting me down!!! And I'm confident, that one day, I WILL see you as the CEO of your dream company...wont mention its name...coz I want it to remain with you alone. And when it happens, I'm confident that its gonna create history!! And I will wait to see all of this happening...and I'll always be there for you Putta...God Bless!!!

Guess it was high time I changed the name of my blogspot... :-)