The Day We Part Ways...

Scary. Very very scary...I dunno how i'm gonna deal with it...so less time?? why?? Couldnt I be with them for a few more months to go?? maybe till his birthday?? I know all of it has one answer. NO.
Parag always tells me...there is no point in living in the past, or rather, thinking about what happened or did not happen in the past and sulking over it; thinking about what good could have happened, but dint happen and crave for it...although I do agree to all that he says, I dont really see myself accepting many things yet. "Pata hi nahi chala ki waqt kaise haath se nikal gaya...pata hi nahi chala ki rishte kitni jaldi badal gaye" is all I can say...

He's going, soon, very soon, to a far far away land, on the other side of this earth...and I dont know, in the times to come, when he returns, if i would ever be able to be there at the airport to receive him...if i would ever be in a position to hug him tightly and welcome him back, coz by then, things would have changed, and my priorities too...I would have moved on with my life too, but yet...I have so much to tell him, but I dont know if I would ever be able to do it. But I want to talk with him, spend time with him, be with him for some more time...there is so much more that I want to express...there is so much that I wanna do for him...not simply bcoz I keep saying that he is my best friend, but bcoz he's more than that...my mentor, my guide, my well wisher, yes, he is my bestest friend!! And to him, I hope I will always be remembered, as his (possible) Best Friend...

Its just about two years that we became such great friends...considering how I hated him way back in November 2004, to now...times have changed. Personally, I dont really make friends that fast, and when I do, I make friends for life, and the bond with that person grows over the years. But with Parag, its just two years, and it feels I have known him since ages!!! Yet it feels insufficient...


When sac was here, we used to have a lot of fun...we've had some really crazy times...night shows, tiff with the traffic police, silent walks, what not!! We used to be called the three musketeers...with sac leaving to US soon after his marriage, I began to feel lonely, as at that time, there wasnt much chemistry between me n parag that I could share stuff wid him...as again...times have changed :) and here I am...actually dedicating an entire post to someone who still fights with me for all kinds of silly reasons...
As time passed, we became great friends...Tom-&-Jerry - That's what we are called...by almost everyone, even by his wife!!! All of my other friends have never addressed me by my full name. Some call me Savi, or Savvy or SaviBen...anything, but not Savita. He was the only guy who used to sincerely call me "SAVITA"; and I hated it...I had to wait two long years before I finally heard the four lettered short form "Savi" from his mouth, when we playing a game of cards...he had said... "Khel...Savi, tera turn hai" I cant describe how happy I was that day!!! Not that it really matters…coz it’s the feeling behind it that makes all the diference…and I know for sure, that we are will always be the best of friends!! Trust me, he is one guy who has really always been there for me...and the bond that we share is what I call pure and divine friendship...nothing MORE, nothing LESS...and I'm proud of this bond...proud that we have always kept it that way...and never took any other meaning for it, nor let anybody else assume anything insensible...

I know these are very small things, but they hold so much of importance in my life...small things that keep reoccuring in one's life go unnoticed, but those which happen once in a blue moon remain in the mind for a lifetime...and so it is, that I will never forget those little little things that he's done for me, although unknowingly, coz they matter to me...a lot. This photo is an example.


This pic is a one time memory...and its my favorite…trust me, this pic is the first thing I see everyday once I reach office…coz its right there on my desk...smiling back at me...the smile on my face is not made up...its so so so natural, only I know how happy I was that day...there are many more such memories...I can never forget the “Snatch the Bottle” game we played on the terrace long time back…it was fun!!! :-) Boy!! I miss those days…There are many such little gestures that are etched in my mind... There are so many memories that are for forever, happy and sad too... and to say it the "Harry Potter" way, they are stored in my "Pensieve" forever...locked away in time...

But, time seems to be flying now...our relationship has changed a lot. I must not forget to mention that our bond has become much much stronger...but at the same time, we dont really get much time for each other...not as much as earlier...I miss those days, and to tell the truth, I want more of it...how I wish I could go back in time and change everything to my convienience...hehe...wishful thinking... :) And yet again, times are gonna change...yes, I know we'll meet again...but this time, I dunno how it's going to be...

I thank God, that he did spare me that ONE day, when I spoke with him a lot...shared with him everything I ever wanted to...made him an integral part of my happiness...I know he's very happy...coz I'm very happy today...finally...and I thank God that this day did dawn in my life...before the day we part ways...