BACK. IN. ACTION!!!

I had promised myself in my previous post, that the next time I write, I'm gonna be happier... :) well there you go, here I am!!! Dec 21st, 2009. Big day for me. Today was my FIRST DAY @ WORK!!! After two long years!! Am I Happy? You bet I am!!! I have waited for this day since Dec 1st 2007... thats like, two years, and 21 days!!

After three months of virtually "selling" myself to God-knows-how-many companies, today, I can proudly say, that I am an Employee of one of the biggest IT companies in India. Name, you guess :). Could be Infy, Wipro, Patni, CTS, anything. I am a Sr. Software Engineer from today. :)

Had a very good day today, but somewhere, in my heart, I craved for Viju to be by my side. I so wanted him to be with me today, gimme a hug, and wish me all the best, and wait for me when I came home from work... Well, none of that happened, so kinda felt like a void inside of me. Not that I expected any of it, coz I know its practically impossible... but the heart craves..."Dil hai ke maanta nahin" :)

At peace, with myself today. :)

3 months later!!!

Wow! Three months gone. Dunno how many more to go. I hope not many. I want to go back to him. I need him... he needs me. At this point of time in life, I'm at a crossroad. On one side is my almost ruined career, and on the other side is my marriage. I have to choose one. Obviously I cannot give up on my marriage. So career it is then. Again. I dont know if it is a big sacrifice, but it IS a sacrifice. I know that. But I think its worth it. I'm not giving up on my career. It will take a backseat I guess. I just have to rebuild it, thats all. That's all?? Sounds too small, but too enormous a task to fulfill. It will be a long hiatus, of three years. A hibernate mode. But then, I have a lot of things to accomplish now. We're gonna have a very stingy 2010. :) Its gonna be a year of very careful planning. Ever heard of the story of the spider who's determination and perseverance helped him make its home where it wished? Every fiasco was its stepping stone to success. I can relate to it so much! We've fallen twice now, and its has gotten tougher the second time. But you know what, we're not giving up. Never. We're ready to face it, headstrong. As long as we're together, I know we can sail through any hardships that God puts us into. In fact, we've been given a new lease of life, a new beginning. This is how I perceive it. Positivity and faith is the key here.

Whew! That kinda became boring :). I'm gonna stop here. For now. The next time I write about myself, I'm gonna be happier. :) Touchwood!