Nothing to say, nothing to tell...

Been a long long time since I wrote... I dunno why, either I havent been able to take out time for it, or life hasnt really been that motivating. Feels like I'm still in reel number 3 or 4 of an "n" reel movie.

Although there have been some exciting things happening with us... for a start, we got pet fish at home... we now have four in all...it has been almost two months now...feels good to see those little ones swimming their way to glory. And then, I happened to get my EAC number for H1-B visa, so I'm hoping that I would get the visa soon... if that happens, life will get a kick start. There was a time when I wanted to work coz "I wanted to work". Now the basic reason for me wanting to work has changed... now I want to work coz now "I want to earn money". Thats the only reason. I want to be a contributing part of our family. I am tired of sitting at home and being desperate, seeing Viju desperate to reach his goals. I want to help him acheive his goals, fulfill his dreams. Life, is not just about me anymore. It is about us : Viju and Me. When we got married, I still remember he telling me all that he ever wants to do in this life :). Some of them are: Taking a trip to Europe, Go to NASA and see a rocket launch, buy a beach house in Mangalore. Yeah I know all of them are pretty materialistic, but you know what, they matter a lot to him... and so to me too. I want him to be the happiest person I have ever seen. He has a lot to achieve in life yet, and he dreams of it everyday. I can see it in his eyes.

He loves me like crazy, pampers me and treats me like the queen of his heart. I really am blessed to have met him. I really am proud to be called his wife. I never thought I could fall in love with anybody so much that I couldnt think of life without him!! But yes, it is true...I cant even imagine how life would be without he being a part of it... I always was this very practical, rational and head strong person - or so I thought :) But I think I must admit that I am hopelessly romantic!! With so much of bitterness in my past, falling in love and trusting someone looked really difficult. But with Viju around, life seems so very easy, and full of love. Long, treacherous paths look short and easy...stupid talks, foolish acts look appalling and sensible :) With my Viju around, life seems alright!! As the song goes: "Jaane kyun, Dil jaanta hai, tu hai to I'll be alright" I know I can count on him for anything and everything. He is my anchor, he is my best friend, he is my identity, he's my life... and I would do absolutely anything to make him happy. Absolutely ANYTHING.

I guessed I digressed from the subject... which, apparently is nothing. But this post was written JLT... these are just thoughts floating around in my head everyday, every moment... ppl reading this post may laugh at me, but frankly, I dont care. This is my space, and I can write anything I want to here....

But yes, It definitely has been a long time since I wrote something constructive...lotsa ideas in the head, no time / motivation to pen them down...will do it someday. But today, this one's for my Viju... Love you Shona...