The Voice

“I Love You”, said a voice to me on the 12th of June 2007. I was spellbound!! I couldn’t speak, I couldn’t react…I didn’t know whether I was happy or sad. All I was doing was to pray…pray that this wasn’t a dream…pray that for once, God is not gonna let me down. “Say something!!” I heard. What could I say? Did I really want to let that voice know what I felt? I was very scared to accept it. God was being too generous; He had plans to present before me an unimaginable beautiful future, and He was telling me to grab it…but I was scared. That voice was all I had to talk with. I desperately wanted to call that voice as “MINE”, but was worried if, once christened “mine”, what if it would fade away for ever in the next few seconds? I wanted that voice to hold me tight, I wanted it hug me, kiss me, protect me…yes, I wanted it to Love me…and Yes!! That voice did love me!! Then why was I backing off??

“Ok, so you don’t Love me?” said the voice.

“No no, nothing like that…Its just that ---“

“Then? Why aren’t you saying anything? Did I hurt you? I’m sorry if I did…”

“No no…not at all!! Well…actually…”

I really really wanted to pour my heart out, but I was stuck with no words to say…but I knew I HAD to do it…this was my only chance…and so, with lot of will power, but yet very shyly, I said, “I Love You too……”

Its been two months since I committed myself to him. Its been two months since we started talking to each other. Its been two months of bliss. But, yet, its gonna be another two months until I see him. Strange isn’t it? I have been in love since the last two months…with a person I have never met. It still is not making any difference, and the fact that we have never seen each other doesn’t change anything. I haven’t seen him, nor touched him, nor felt him, but I have heard him…yes, that’s it. I have heard him on the phone…and it’s the voice, the abstract presence of him that I have fallen in love with.

When I talk to him on the phone, I don’t know how well dressed he is, I don’t know what exactly he is doing while talking to me. But one thing is very very evident, and that’s his concentration towards me. Nothing else matters, except me. I still sometimes wonder, if it’s a dream, and I do kinda begin to believe it, but then, reality shows a thumbs down to that feeling, and brings me to face the wonderful truth…that I’m in love!! Yes!! I’m in Love!!

Counting days is so easy, yet so difficult. And the irony is, when you count days, somehow the days go much much slower!! I have been counting since the 12th of June, and the 2nd of November, when I would see him for the first time, looks like an eternity!! But I believe in the fruit of patience (“Sabar ka phal meetha hota hai” He hates this saying :-) ), and I know that soon, very soon, that he is gonna come and take me along with him to a beautiful world…of just me and him…yes, he’s gonna be mine soon…and very soon, “The Voice” is gonna become “My Voice” forever…