I have a question to myself. I cried today, when I gave him a greeting card. I dont know why. But my thought of giving him a card was because of an incident that happened yesterday. Yesterday, when I went to his house, he wasnt really in a good mood, and I, at that time, had lots to share with him. But he suddenly spoke so rudely with me, that it came as a very "shocking surprise". I felt anger shooting up my veins, and so to control myself, I took the best possible solution, I left. I didn't even speak to his wife. It was only later that I realized the cause of his rudeness...
All said and done, and things were okay, I went to Jayanagar today, and bought him a card. I have this weird habit of giving greeting cards to people...just like that, coz I feel it makes one feel better, in whatever mood they are, it brings a smile on their face. I wanted to see him smiling, and so I got this very thoughtful greeting card and gave it to him. But after I gave him the card, I saw a different look in his eye. I cant really explain it, but it brought tears in my eyes. That look said something, but all his lips uttered were, "Thank You". Tears welled up in my eye when I said, "You're Welcome". I couldn't take it any longer, and ran to the rest room to cry my heart out. I am still thinking, why did I cry? Why does my heart cry for every little emotion he shows?? Why is it that I feel like going out of the way and do all thats possible for me to do for him...only to see him smiling?? And finally, coming back to all that's going on in my mind today, why did I cry?? Why??
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Burden
10 years ago
3 comments:
Hello,
I hope that you are not feeling bad today, and I send my wishes to you, to for much hope and healing to enter your heart.
I understand what it is like to love someone that you cannot have. But this man is married, he is out of your reach as a married man, is he not?
I hope you stop torturing yourself and move on, in time you will forget him but you have to focus on other things.
You are young and pretty and have all of your life ahead of you, it can be a wonderful life and there is a man out there who will love you and treat you as you deserve.
I once loved a man and thought I would never, ever get over him. I prayed to God to take it out of my heart and He did it for me, so He can do that for you.
I wish you all the best.
Lalah
"THE HEART HAS REASONS THAT REASON DOES NOT UNDERSTAND"
That answers everything.. or maybe creates more questions in your mind!
That's why they call it "feelings" - they just have to be felt; trying to make sense of them is of no use!!
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